There have been several moments in my life where I become fully aware of the present and ponder on how I will feel and who I will be at a later date. For instance, at the beginning of my senior year of high school I envisioned who I would be a graduation and the experiences I would have. I'm often never right but those moments of complete awareness provide markers to my life that almost give me time to self evaluate.
It's scary to think that so much about you will someday change. Our lives aren't static, we're constantly changing as we are exposed to the world and its intricacies. And somehow, even though each human life is unique, we can find common ground and learn to sympathize.
We spend our lives becoming. Becoming famous. Becoming quiet. Becoming old. Becoming sentimental. Becoming better. Whatever we become, it is new and altering to our insides, to the spirit that makes us who we are.
I've always been taught that without opposites we can't live fulfilling lives. Without pain we cannot know joy. Without disaster we can't know calm. And that is what makes the future AND the past so vital. We don't see what we've become until we see where we've been.
Looking back, I don't ever want to go back to the person I was; but looking to the future, I know I will be so much better. And that's why we constantly have to be reevaluating and improving. After all, that is our purpose here in this mortal frame.
Much love always
-M
Monday, September 2, 2013
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Remembering Lens
So this week was rough. Not in the "I just back-packed across the Grand Canyon" kind of way, but more in a "what the heck just happened" kind of way. I've mentally exhausted (and a little physically exhausted as well). Finals and four extra shifts at work can drain a person. I found it really hard to be positive, until I read my last post and reminded myself that no matter how bad life seems sometimes, it gets better and there are still good things despite the bad.
For instance, my friend K let me take her to a local cemetery this week to see the grave of her dear friend. It gave me the chance to remember my grandpa and all the good memories I have of him. It also reminded me how short and fragile life is.
I was also reminded of how important friends are. My friends really helped carry me through the week when I got really down or worried. They lifted me and reminded me how to have a little fun.
I was reminded how good God is and how much he really looks out for us whether we are happy, sad, or all the range of emotions in between.
Lastly, I was reminded of how lucky I am to have a car that actually works. That thing got me everywhere this week without dying or running out of gas. Talk about a blessing.
I hope you all continue to see the blessings even when it is really hard. Keep moving always!
-M
For instance, my friend K let me take her to a local cemetery this week to see the grave of her dear friend. It gave me the chance to remember my grandpa and all the good memories I have of him. It also reminded me how short and fragile life is.
I was also reminded of how important friends are. My friends really helped carry me through the week when I got really down or worried. They lifted me and reminded me how to have a little fun.
I was reminded how good God is and how much he really looks out for us whether we are happy, sad, or all the range of emotions in between.
Lastly, I was reminded of how lucky I am to have a car that actually works. That thing got me everywhere this week without dying or running out of gas. Talk about a blessing.
I hope you all continue to see the blessings even when it is really hard. Keep moving always!
-M
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Positive Lens
I haven't posted in forever! With finals, moving, a new semester and preparation for my excursion to China, I've been extremely busy. But here I finally have a moment to try to shed some positivity on my recent life.
First of all, I'm surviving spring term. Spring term basically squeezes a regular 15 week semester into 7 weeks. I'm taking it to finish my last pre-requisites before I apply to my program. And as of right now, I'm not failing either of my classes! Success.
On top of managing my classes, I'm preparing for a trip to China. I'm going with my former program director to do a similar program as I did in Taiwan two years ago (I still can't believe that was two years ago). I am super excited to get to serve the people there and see the world from a different perspective. More will come on my experience there after I return.
I am another year older!
One of my dearest friends is leaving to serve an LDS mission next week. I'm gonna miss him a lot, but I am proud of his choice to set aside two years of his life to serve others in Brazil.
Things don't always go how we want them to, but I know that if we just keep pressing forward things will work out. They have a funny way of always doing so. Keep strong my friends. Look for the good in life.
-M
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Good Vibes Lens
So this week I've decided I'm grateful for two things: humor and the Spirit. Random, yes. But that's not the point. Story time!
First, humor. Monday was April Fools day as many of you know and this year I actually did something! I pulled off the ultimate fake engagement prank on Facebook with my friend D. Who knew so many people could be so easily fooled ;) Prank aside, I got a heavy dose of laughter that day that I had not had in a long time. It felt so good! Laughter truly makes you feel so good, and since I've been so stressed this foreign laughter made my day.
Second, the Spirit. For those who don't know what the Spirit is, in the LDS church we believe that we can be comforted and taught by God's spirit. Some people think of it kind of like your conscience. So this week was my church's annual General Conference where our church leaders teach us about things they've felt inspired to share. I loved it a lot. I was so comforted and edified by the words of these dear servants from the Lord. They have a way of saying exactly what you need to hear. I would elaborate more but I don't think anyone has the energy to hear a long explanation on my thoughts about the 8 hours of sessions I watched. So suffice it to say, it was awesome and you should all watch it.
Finals are coming up so I can't say if I'll write much more for a while. But keep looking for good everywhere. If you seek for it, it can be found.
Much love,
M
First, humor. Monday was April Fools day as many of you know and this year I actually did something! I pulled off the ultimate fake engagement prank on Facebook with my friend D. Who knew so many people could be so easily fooled ;) Prank aside, I got a heavy dose of laughter that day that I had not had in a long time. It felt so good! Laughter truly makes you feel so good, and since I've been so stressed this foreign laughter made my day.
Second, the Spirit. For those who don't know what the Spirit is, in the LDS church we believe that we can be comforted and taught by God's spirit. Some people think of it kind of like your conscience. So this week was my church's annual General Conference where our church leaders teach us about things they've felt inspired to share. I loved it a lot. I was so comforted and edified by the words of these dear servants from the Lord. They have a way of saying exactly what you need to hear. I would elaborate more but I don't think anyone has the energy to hear a long explanation on my thoughts about the 8 hours of sessions I watched. So suffice it to say, it was awesome and you should all watch it.
Finals are coming up so I can't say if I'll write much more for a while. But keep looking for good everywhere. If you seek for it, it can be found.
Much love,
M
Saturday, March 30, 2013
New Lens
I think I'm starting to repeat titles alot. Oh well. So I know I haven't written this month much, but I don't think I could have if I wanted to. The last month or so it was really hard to see the light in each day. I know good things surrounded me, but it was hard to see them when I was so focused on the stresses of life.
Today I want to point out the goodness of sunlight. Provo finally has been graced with relatively good weather and sunshine! It seems like an insignificant thing, but it is crazy how much a little good weather can change the morale of an apartment complex. Suddenly people want to do all the outside activities, work on homework on the lawn, and even sleep in the sunshine (I'm guilty of two of the three). It's such a simple pleasure, but one I am currently very thankful.
I'm also thankful that I can get a college education. I'm pretty sure I complain to my roommate every single day about how busy I am, but deep down I know this busyness means I'm learning a lot, and for that I am grateful. To do wonderful things someday I know I need to make the most out of this opportunity.
This will be a short post, but I just wanted to encourage everyone to not fall in a slump like I did. Look for the good in EVERYTHING. I know if say this enough one day I'll actually believe and follow it so just bear with me. Good vibes everyone.
Much love always,
-M
Today I want to point out the goodness of sunlight. Provo finally has been graced with relatively good weather and sunshine! It seems like an insignificant thing, but it is crazy how much a little good weather can change the morale of an apartment complex. Suddenly people want to do all the outside activities, work on homework on the lawn, and even sleep in the sunshine (I'm guilty of two of the three). It's such a simple pleasure, but one I am currently very thankful.
I'm also thankful that I can get a college education. I'm pretty sure I complain to my roommate every single day about how busy I am, but deep down I know this busyness means I'm learning a lot, and for that I am grateful. To do wonderful things someday I know I need to make the most out of this opportunity.
This will be a short post, but I just wanted to encourage everyone to not fall in a slump like I did. Look for the good in EVERYTHING. I know if say this enough one day I'll actually believe and follow it so just bear with me. Good vibes everyone.
Much love always,
-M
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Life Lessons Lens
Life can be hell. Lets face it. But those lows are the reason we can experience the highs. Life wasn't meant to be easy. We have to have experiences to make us strong and to learn to appreciate what we have.
Today I said goodbye to one of my grandfathers. It seems like you'd want to spend the last few days of someone's life recounting good memories, but that was just too hard. All I could manage was a final "I love you" that probably seemed so empty. But the beauty of the matter is that, no matter how unintelligible my words were, my grandpa still recognized that I was there and that I cared. And when it really comes down to it, that's what we all really want to know in life; that we are loved and supported no matter what. We don't need to give or be shown elaborate displays of affection. All we need is the knowledge that people care.
Today I also learned the necessity of normalcy and good humor. During my visit with my family I could have just sat there and cried for two hours; Or I could have inquired into the lives of my other relatives and joked with them about whatever. I chose the latter. Because it is easier to focus on the positive then dwell on the negative.
Lastly, I was reminded of how frail we are. We can try and be as strong as we want, but none of us are immune to trials and death. We need to just trust in God's timetable and make the most of every moment we have.
So love everyone. Remember those who have gone ahead and those who surround you in the present. Much love always.
-M
Today I said goodbye to one of my grandfathers. It seems like you'd want to spend the last few days of someone's life recounting good memories, but that was just too hard. All I could manage was a final "I love you" that probably seemed so empty. But the beauty of the matter is that, no matter how unintelligible my words were, my grandpa still recognized that I was there and that I cared. And when it really comes down to it, that's what we all really want to know in life; that we are loved and supported no matter what. We don't need to give or be shown elaborate displays of affection. All we need is the knowledge that people care.
Today I also learned the necessity of normalcy and good humor. During my visit with my family I could have just sat there and cried for two hours; Or I could have inquired into the lives of my other relatives and joked with them about whatever. I chose the latter. Because it is easier to focus on the positive then dwell on the negative.
Lastly, I was reminded of how frail we are. We can try and be as strong as we want, but none of us are immune to trials and death. We need to just trust in God's timetable and make the most of every moment we have.
So love everyone. Remember those who have gone ahead and those who surround you in the present. Much love always.
-M
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Failure Lens
As I recently noted on one of my social media sites, I feel like college has taught me that I have a great capacity to fail. This seems really morbid at first glance, but isn't necessarily intended to be that way. Realizing that I have a great capacity to fail is significant because I'm learning my outer bounds. I feel like failure is often one of the ways God directs us to the paths we need to be on. By all means, I'm not saying to give up if you fail. But keep in mind what your limitations are, and whether or not they are worth overcoming. Sometimes the better option may be to work around them and learn from your mistakes.
Along those lines, failure has taught me to focus on learning rather than reaching success markers. It's kinda the whole "find joy in the journey" concept that you need to try to learn and grow as a person and not focus on "making the grade" or climbing the success ladder of business. For instance, this semester at college has been the worst grades I've ever earned thus far in my school experience, but I feel like I've learned so much. I've learned how to look outside myself at a situation, how to memorize, and how to time manage (or how NOT to).
Failure is also a reminder that I am human. I have weaknesses. I am imperfect. I have lots of room to improve. And when I remember this I can be humble enough to take criticism and make necessary improvements.
Its never too late to become better. Just remember that we are given trials and failures to remind us to constantly be improving. Much love.
-M
Along those lines, failure has taught me to focus on learning rather than reaching success markers. It's kinda the whole "find joy in the journey" concept that you need to try to learn and grow as a person and not focus on "making the grade" or climbing the success ladder of business. For instance, this semester at college has been the worst grades I've ever earned thus far in my school experience, but I feel like I've learned so much. I've learned how to look outside myself at a situation, how to memorize, and how to time manage (or how NOT to).
Failure is also a reminder that I am human. I have weaknesses. I am imperfect. I have lots of room to improve. And when I remember this I can be humble enough to take criticism and make necessary improvements.
Its never too late to become better. Just remember that we are given trials and failures to remind us to constantly be improving. Much love.
-M
Monday, February 18, 2013
Life Lens
I apologize for the lack of material on here lately. Life has been busy in good and not so good ways. Some recent events have really forced me to think a little deeper about the value of life and the significance of doing the most with what we have.
My grandfather was recently hospitalized after slipping on ice and getting severe head trauma. My grandfather is very dear to me and it was so hard to imagine life without him. There were so many close calls where we thought he was gone after he had first been admitted to the hospital. But through the blessing of God he has so far pulled through. It's still hard, but he's alive and I've gotten to visit him on a couple of occasions. Those visits were such a blessing.
With his hospitalization I really started thinking how amazing it is that so many of us can live so long and accomplish so many things. It is truly a wonder that, no matter the length of lifespan, we can all do some good if we choose to. My grandpa has done a lot of good in his life time and I know that even if he had passed away that first day that he would still have lived a fulfilled life and that he was a positive impact. It made me realize that I need to change now and become that force of good. I've got no time to lose. If we think about it, all we really have is this moment. Nothing more is guaranteed. So we need to do our best with what we have.
Another experience I observed recently was the passing away of a resident assistant in my apartment complex. She was a bright, bubbly girl who, I felt, was a great example to those around her. Unfortunately, she experienced a physical trial that was more than her body could take and she was carried away to our Heavenly Father.
Now I don't confess to know her that well. But I do know that she made the most of what she had. Her short life was likely well spent.
Which leads to self evaluation: what are you doing with your life? Are you wasting it on trivial things or are you using the time you have to improve the lives of those around you?
It's our trials that tell us who we are. They give us experience, as well as opportunities to look outside ourselves. It is my hope that we don't have to go through the hard stuff to whip us into shape, but if we do, learn the lesson that is intended, don't dwell on the negative, and make someone else's life better.
-M
My grandfather was recently hospitalized after slipping on ice and getting severe head trauma. My grandfather is very dear to me and it was so hard to imagine life without him. There were so many close calls where we thought he was gone after he had first been admitted to the hospital. But through the blessing of God he has so far pulled through. It's still hard, but he's alive and I've gotten to visit him on a couple of occasions. Those visits were such a blessing.
With his hospitalization I really started thinking how amazing it is that so many of us can live so long and accomplish so many things. It is truly a wonder that, no matter the length of lifespan, we can all do some good if we choose to. My grandpa has done a lot of good in his life time and I know that even if he had passed away that first day that he would still have lived a fulfilled life and that he was a positive impact. It made me realize that I need to change now and become that force of good. I've got no time to lose. If we think about it, all we really have is this moment. Nothing more is guaranteed. So we need to do our best with what we have.
Another experience I observed recently was the passing away of a resident assistant in my apartment complex. She was a bright, bubbly girl who, I felt, was a great example to those around her. Unfortunately, she experienced a physical trial that was more than her body could take and she was carried away to our Heavenly Father.
Now I don't confess to know her that well. But I do know that she made the most of what she had. Her short life was likely well spent.
Which leads to self evaluation: what are you doing with your life? Are you wasting it on trivial things or are you using the time you have to improve the lives of those around you?
It's our trials that tell us who we are. They give us experience, as well as opportunities to look outside ourselves. It is my hope that we don't have to go through the hard stuff to whip us into shape, but if we do, learn the lesson that is intended, don't dwell on the negative, and make someone else's life better.
-M
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Good Enough Lens
I've really been pondering on the idea of being "good enough" lately. What constitutes being "good enough" and why are so many scales of this skewed? This is a very sensitive topic for some because it can be a life-long self battle of sorts.
One of the main reasons why this topic has been on my mind is because of my lovely supervisor L. L. is not afraid to tell me her opinion but at the same time doesn't force it upon me. She'll do anything she can to help me improve and grow. Basically she's the best :) Recently we were having a talk about confidence and my subtle lack of it. I intend to enter the field of business one day and we were talking about the fact that to be successful you have to have confidence in yourself and your ability to improve the lives of others. You have to know that you are capable of making a difference. As simple a concept as this is, it is so hard to embrace. And it isn't something you gain overnight, you have to work towards it.
The gist of our conversation was basically that I needed to not doubt myself. I needed to trust myself and trust that I have had experiences through school and my personal life that have prepared me for this present moment and I am capable of achieving great things if I but apply myself. Maybe it is just natural tendency speaking but I found it hard to see myself as a "game-changer", a "difference maker", an "impact for good". These seem like hefty titles for a college freshman.
But even more baffling to me was the fact that L. could explain this to me with such conviction while I sat in somewhat disbelief. What was the difference between our perspectives?
Maybe the difference is the same difference I experience when I try to explain to someone why they shouldn't give up, why they are worth something great. Distance gives us perspective, and so does experience.
Another reason this has been on my mind is because of my friend D. D recently challenged me and my FHE group (LDS thing) to create semester goals for ourselves in the categories of Mental, Physical and Spiritual. For my Mental goal I said I wanted to learn the concepts in my Economics class so well that I could explain them to others and get an "A" overall in the class. Seems a little silly right? Yes maybe, but here's my reasoning: I'm terrified for this class. It is one of the most failed courses at my college. And I have to do well in it to get into the business school. The pressure is on. Yes, I have other classes I need to do well in, but I've set my sights on this one in particular. For some reason I have this gut feeling that if I can achieve this goal then my self-confidence will increase. I will know personally that I can do something hard and that I will gain skills that will later help me help others.
Bringing this all back around to the original point, I feel like this inner "good enough" meter is directly connected to the amount of self-confidence we feel. You can pretend things all you want but the harsh reality is the inner-peace we feel towards ourselves is our guiding star. But rather than end on a negative note I'd like to say that we can all increase our self-confidence and become a better self. Baby steps my friends. They are absolutely necessary. Best wishes and I'd love to hear your personal take on this or any inspiring stories. Much love!
-M
One of the main reasons why this topic has been on my mind is because of my lovely supervisor L. L. is not afraid to tell me her opinion but at the same time doesn't force it upon me. She'll do anything she can to help me improve and grow. Basically she's the best :) Recently we were having a talk about confidence and my subtle lack of it. I intend to enter the field of business one day and we were talking about the fact that to be successful you have to have confidence in yourself and your ability to improve the lives of others. You have to know that you are capable of making a difference. As simple a concept as this is, it is so hard to embrace. And it isn't something you gain overnight, you have to work towards it.
The gist of our conversation was basically that I needed to not doubt myself. I needed to trust myself and trust that I have had experiences through school and my personal life that have prepared me for this present moment and I am capable of achieving great things if I but apply myself. Maybe it is just natural tendency speaking but I found it hard to see myself as a "game-changer", a "difference maker", an "impact for good". These seem like hefty titles for a college freshman.
But even more baffling to me was the fact that L. could explain this to me with such conviction while I sat in somewhat disbelief. What was the difference between our perspectives?
Maybe the difference is the same difference I experience when I try to explain to someone why they shouldn't give up, why they are worth something great. Distance gives us perspective, and so does experience.
Another reason this has been on my mind is because of my friend D. D recently challenged me and my FHE group (LDS thing) to create semester goals for ourselves in the categories of Mental, Physical and Spiritual. For my Mental goal I said I wanted to learn the concepts in my Economics class so well that I could explain them to others and get an "A" overall in the class. Seems a little silly right? Yes maybe, but here's my reasoning: I'm terrified for this class. It is one of the most failed courses at my college. And I have to do well in it to get into the business school. The pressure is on. Yes, I have other classes I need to do well in, but I've set my sights on this one in particular. For some reason I have this gut feeling that if I can achieve this goal then my self-confidence will increase. I will know personally that I can do something hard and that I will gain skills that will later help me help others.
Bringing this all back around to the original point, I feel like this inner "good enough" meter is directly connected to the amount of self-confidence we feel. You can pretend things all you want but the harsh reality is the inner-peace we feel towards ourselves is our guiding star. But rather than end on a negative note I'd like to say that we can all increase our self-confidence and become a better self. Baby steps my friends. They are absolutely necessary. Best wishes and I'd love to hear your personal take on this or any inspiring stories. Much love!
-M
Saturday, January 12, 2013
January Lens
I've been as good about writing on here lately as I have in my journal (except I haven't written in my journal since August). Many good things in life have come and gone since the last time I wrote. In the end I think they all boil down to one thing: life is good, God is good, and life moves on. Let's peruse uninteresting facts about my life shall we?
My first semester at college ended and I did better than expected. Someone up above was really watching out for me. I don't confess to be knowledgeable when it comes down to it, I just know where to look for wisdom and knowledge. Another good thing about the semester is that I really enjoyed my professors. I don't think people are always as lucky as I am to get along incredibly well with those who are trying to supply me with useful knowledge.
Now that a new semester has started I can put last semester behind me and move on to a new, bright semester. It will be hard, lets be real here, but I'm excited about all the opportunities it will bring. I just have to keep telling myself that this semester will be great, even when I'm at the height of business and stress (please remind me of this every few weeks ok? thanks).
I saw my family over the break. I think separation really does make people draw closer together. I don't mean this to sound harsh but I think I was more excited to see my family and get along with them because I hadn't seen them in a while. Distance is God's way of giving us perspective.
Many friends and acquaintances have received mission calls and/or left for their missions. What a cool experience to see so many people dedicate their lives to their choice of service. I know many people outside the LDS faith dislike having the "Mormon Missionaries" knocking on their doors but I think it is just a misunderstanding. These missionaries are just trying to share something that makes them happy with others. Same as any other religion that sends out missionaries. I'm not saying people who don't invite missionaries into their homes are bad people, I just think we could all do better at understanding each other a little better.
I know there are more aspects of my life that have been good but I'm tired and I think you all now know more about me and my opinion than you ever needed to. ;) So let me know about the good you've all seen in life lately.
-M
My first semester at college ended and I did better than expected. Someone up above was really watching out for me. I don't confess to be knowledgeable when it comes down to it, I just know where to look for wisdom and knowledge. Another good thing about the semester is that I really enjoyed my professors. I don't think people are always as lucky as I am to get along incredibly well with those who are trying to supply me with useful knowledge.
Now that a new semester has started I can put last semester behind me and move on to a new, bright semester. It will be hard, lets be real here, but I'm excited about all the opportunities it will bring. I just have to keep telling myself that this semester will be great, even when I'm at the height of business and stress (please remind me of this every few weeks ok? thanks).
I saw my family over the break. I think separation really does make people draw closer together. I don't mean this to sound harsh but I think I was more excited to see my family and get along with them because I hadn't seen them in a while. Distance is God's way of giving us perspective.
Many friends and acquaintances have received mission calls and/or left for their missions. What a cool experience to see so many people dedicate their lives to their choice of service. I know many people outside the LDS faith dislike having the "Mormon Missionaries" knocking on their doors but I think it is just a misunderstanding. These missionaries are just trying to share something that makes them happy with others. Same as any other religion that sends out missionaries. I'm not saying people who don't invite missionaries into their homes are bad people, I just think we could all do better at understanding each other a little better.
I know there are more aspects of my life that have been good but I'm tired and I think you all now know more about me and my opinion than you ever needed to. ;) So let me know about the good you've all seen in life lately.
-M
Friday, December 7, 2012
Collaborative Lens
So today two of my great friends M and N are helping me write this post. It's gonna get interesting :) so prepare yourselves accordingly.
Here's the preliminary list of things they said they are thankful for today:
Ok, new subject. Here is N. Hello! I hope that your lives are going awesome, because mine certainly is! I get to go home to see my wonderful family in just a little over a week...all I have to do is survive finals. So one of the things that totally made my semester was the awesome friends that I've made. They are funny, sweet, and let me invade their apartments pretty much whenever. I am super grateful to them for giving me a social life and for being their amazing selves! Hmm...basically I am terrible about coming up with things to write about so I think that I'll end on that note and defer to M :)
That's me! I'm M, and I like to be happy. I like when others are happy too. So be happy! Cause it makes the world a happier place. I'm way excited to go home in a week, because I love my family. But, it's bittersweet to leave the people I've gotten to know here. I've made so many good friends and I'm sad that some of them won't be returning next semester. One thing my Book of Mormon professor said today really struck me. He invited us all to a class reunion, 10000 years from now. He wanted us all to be there. While it doesn't seem like a big deal, I found it really neat, because people come into our lives all the time. Some interactions with others last an instance, while others last a lifetime. I hope we can cherish the moments we have with others. I know that someday we will meet again, and I hope that when we do, we can have a fine time catching up and sharing stories. I'm grateful for the wonderful, beautiful people I have met this semester, and while some are going their separate ways, I'm grateful for the experiences that we've all had together.
So on this happy note I'm going to cuddle up with my quilt and call it a night. Remember to find good in everything around you this week!
-M
Here's the preliminary list of things they said they are thankful for today:
- Professors that end the semester early, sing carols in the morning, have you take your final in class the week before finals, and that bear their testimony the last day of class.
- "I get to go home in a week"
- babies "They're beautiful!" "I used to hate them..."
- Wherever You Will Go (the version by Charlene Soraia)
Ok, new subject. Here is N. Hello! I hope that your lives are going awesome, because mine certainly is! I get to go home to see my wonderful family in just a little over a week...all I have to do is survive finals. So one of the things that totally made my semester was the awesome friends that I've made. They are funny, sweet, and let me invade their apartments pretty much whenever. I am super grateful to them for giving me a social life and for being their amazing selves! Hmm...basically I am terrible about coming up with things to write about so I think that I'll end on that note and defer to M :)
That's me! I'm M, and I like to be happy. I like when others are happy too. So be happy! Cause it makes the world a happier place. I'm way excited to go home in a week, because I love my family. But, it's bittersweet to leave the people I've gotten to know here. I've made so many good friends and I'm sad that some of them won't be returning next semester. One thing my Book of Mormon professor said today really struck me. He invited us all to a class reunion, 10000 years from now. He wanted us all to be there. While it doesn't seem like a big deal, I found it really neat, because people come into our lives all the time. Some interactions with others last an instance, while others last a lifetime. I hope we can cherish the moments we have with others. I know that someday we will meet again, and I hope that when we do, we can have a fine time catching up and sharing stories. I'm grateful for the wonderful, beautiful people I have met this semester, and while some are going their separate ways, I'm grateful for the experiences that we've all had together.
So on this happy note I'm going to cuddle up with my quilt and call it a night. Remember to find good in everything around you this week!
-M
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Catch Up Lens
So I'm super lame. I haven't posted since the 16th. So today's post is all the things beautiful in life since then (or at least as many as I can remember).
So basically this is a really short list. But it'll do for now. I'd love to hear what YOU find beautiful.
-M
- Making vanishing rolls and Oreo balls with my next door neighbors.
- Baking bread/rolls.
- Spending time with my family.
- Having a bed to sleep in.
- My car hasn't had problems despite how much I've been traveling.
- I'm learning new things in all my classes.
- My roommate and I hung up Christmas lights in our apartment.
- I have a good job and a good bus.
- The bus is generally on time.
- My former roommate got married in the temple. She and her husband were radiant at their reception.
- That my FHE bro gets to go to the beautiful country of Costa Rica. ;)
- Three of my favorite college friends are on my calendar in stick figure form.
- My self-made quilt keeps me warm.
- I'm caught up on all my payments.
- I have awesome visiting teachers.
- Playing guitar with my friends.
So basically this is a really short list. But it'll do for now. I'd love to hear what YOU find beautiful.
-M
Friday, November 16, 2012
Roommates Lens
I'm a slacker. It has been so long since I've posted. I will say that I have been extremely busy but I don't know if that counts like a legitimate excuse. Anywho, moving on. Lately I've been really grateful for awesome roommates.
I don't want to brag (actually I do) but I have the greatest roommates. Sadly one is getting married and moving out (sad that she's moving, not that she's getting married. That part is happy) but I've still loved having her as a roommate. The reason I like them so much is because of the qualities they emanate. We could all learn from them ;)
To distinguish we'll call them M1 and M2 (were M&M&M in this apartment). M1 is very studious. Not in a weird anti-social way, but in a way that shows she cares about getting an education. She's also diligent about learning new things, even if it means teaching herself. I admire her ethic. M1 is also very willing to serve and serious about her religion. She's willing to stand up for her beliefs and not be swayed by the opinions of others if they are contrary to her morals. She's always got a smile or a hello for those she knows and is a great comic relief.
M2 is a doll. She is so kind and selfless. She is truly a wonder-woman in my eyes. Somehow she has managed to stay on top of school while planning a wedding. She understands the importance of education but also of preparing for marriage as well. She is so mature and a great example to me. M2 always looks for the good in life and in people.
M1 and M2 help me gain perspective on life and help me figure out this weird stage of life. I'm so fortunate to have them as friends and examples. They are both truly beautiful inside and out.
That may have sounded gushy but you can just deal with that ;) They needed recognition. I hope you can all look for the good examples in your life and see their qualities that help make you a better person.
-M3
I don't want to brag (actually I do) but I have the greatest roommates. Sadly one is getting married and moving out (sad that she's moving, not that she's getting married. That part is happy) but I've still loved having her as a roommate. The reason I like them so much is because of the qualities they emanate. We could all learn from them ;)
To distinguish we'll call them M1 and M2 (were M&M&M in this apartment). M1 is very studious. Not in a weird anti-social way, but in a way that shows she cares about getting an education. She's also diligent about learning new things, even if it means teaching herself. I admire her ethic. M1 is also very willing to serve and serious about her religion. She's willing to stand up for her beliefs and not be swayed by the opinions of others if they are contrary to her morals. She's always got a smile or a hello for those she knows and is a great comic relief.
M2 is a doll. She is so kind and selfless. She is truly a wonder-woman in my eyes. Somehow she has managed to stay on top of school while planning a wedding. She understands the importance of education but also of preparing for marriage as well. She is so mature and a great example to me. M2 always looks for the good in life and in people.
M1 and M2 help me gain perspective on life and help me figure out this weird stage of life. I'm so fortunate to have them as friends and examples. They are both truly beautiful inside and out.
That may have sounded gushy but you can just deal with that ;) They needed recognition. I hope you can all look for the good examples in your life and see their qualities that help make you a better person.
-M3
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Aesthetic Lens
I don't know why it was so striking this week, but my Humanities class really struck a chord. I think the arts are so important because they are really cathartic for some people and have the ability to touch and teach us in a way nothing else can. This week we focused on adaptations and it was really fascinating.
One of the most striking things about adaptations is how impressible the first medium we experience a piece in is. For instance, you read a book and love it. They create a movie based on the book but the book will always be your favorite. The book is what got you attached and will be what continually holds your interest. This concept doesn't always hold true, but it is interesting how frequently it does. This started making me think of how often this idea holds true to life in general. For instance, our first experience with religion is often the one that makes the greatest impression on our morals and concept of God. Or when you make a friend and later gain more friends, the first friend often is the one we're closest to. Disagree all you want, but I see these kind of things all the time.
The idea that art is cathartic or therapeutic also stuck out to me. One of the best examples we viewed was the song Hurt by Nine Inch Nails redone by Johnny Cash. The song is really deep and sad. It was meant to be that way, I'm sure, but despite the sadness it conveys an incredible message. This was particularly poignant when we listened to Johnny Cash's version. If you know anything about the man, you know he had a pretty screwed up life. He had lots of family struggles as well as drug addictions. As he performed his rendition of this song you could really feel his pain and remorse, how much he wished things had turned out differently, how hard his life really was despite the celebrity "glamor". To preview this song click here.
Never underestimate the power of art. You never know when it will find you and make a lasting impression on you.
-M
One of the most striking things about adaptations is how impressible the first medium we experience a piece in is. For instance, you read a book and love it. They create a movie based on the book but the book will always be your favorite. The book is what got you attached and will be what continually holds your interest. This concept doesn't always hold true, but it is interesting how frequently it does. This started making me think of how often this idea holds true to life in general. For instance, our first experience with religion is often the one that makes the greatest impression on our morals and concept of God. Or when you make a friend and later gain more friends, the first friend often is the one we're closest to. Disagree all you want, but I see these kind of things all the time.
The idea that art is cathartic or therapeutic also stuck out to me. One of the best examples we viewed was the song Hurt by Nine Inch Nails redone by Johnny Cash. The song is really deep and sad. It was meant to be that way, I'm sure, but despite the sadness it conveys an incredible message. This was particularly poignant when we listened to Johnny Cash's version. If you know anything about the man, you know he had a pretty screwed up life. He had lots of family struggles as well as drug addictions. As he performed his rendition of this song you could really feel his pain and remorse, how much he wished things had turned out differently, how hard his life really was despite the celebrity "glamor". To preview this song click here.
Never underestimate the power of art. You never know when it will find you and make a lasting impression on you.
-M
Monday, November 5, 2012
Optimist vs Realist Lens
So I've been hearing two sides of an interesting debate lately: is it better to be an optimist or a realist. The realists argue that it is pointless to be overly positive because the world isn't perfect, but also pointless to be pessimist 'cause the world doesn't entirely suck. You just need to see things as they really are. The optimists argue that it can't hurt to be a little extra positive. It's kind of the whole life is meant to be enjoyed not just endured concept. I'm not sure who I side with but I would love to share some great experiences ;) (of course).
During church yesterday this guy shared how he felt lately that, for whatever reason, his life was just really good and he was able to find the good in every day, even when his roommates couldn't. It sounded a little silly at first, but then I thought, well, that's kind of what I'm sellin' on my blog: every day can be beautiful. There is always something good that we kind find about life, even when it is really really hard. So I quickly grew to agree with him, and even though I probably can't face each day as perky-like as he probably can, it doesn't hurt to complain less and enjoy what is good in life more.
I had a realist story to share but I'm kind of tired and forgot. But I think it was along the lines of: I was complaining and my friend gently reminded me that I was wrong and how the situation really was. It wasn't necessarily a pep-talk, but it certainly made me reframe my thinking.
So moral of the story is that we could all do well to change our outlook on life a little. Shift your thinking until you can see the good in each day. I think a clearer outlook helps us see the beauty of life easier.
much love always
-M
During church yesterday this guy shared how he felt lately that, for whatever reason, his life was just really good and he was able to find the good in every day, even when his roommates couldn't. It sounded a little silly at first, but then I thought, well, that's kind of what I'm sellin' on my blog: every day can be beautiful. There is always something good that we kind find about life, even when it is really really hard. So I quickly grew to agree with him, and even though I probably can't face each day as perky-like as he probably can, it doesn't hurt to complain less and enjoy what is good in life more.
I had a realist story to share but I'm kind of tired and forgot. But I think it was along the lines of: I was complaining and my friend gently reminded me that I was wrong and how the situation really was. It wasn't necessarily a pep-talk, but it certainly made me reframe my thinking.
So moral of the story is that we could all do well to change our outlook on life a little. Shift your thinking until you can see the good in each day. I think a clearer outlook helps us see the beauty of life easier.
much love always
-M
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Holiday Lens
I don't know what it is, but holidays seem to put us in better moods (generally speaking). Something about celebrations makes us more willing to give, more willing to be kind, and more willing to be outgoing. I love it :) You make think this is only around Christmas but it's not. I think that is what makes holidays special; it is the few times a year when we can just enjoy different aspects of life.
For example (there is always an example), yesterday was Halloween and boy was it fun. Quite a few people dressed up in amazing costumes (as seen here) and a majority of my professors brought us candy! They didn't have to, they chose to because they wanted to lighten the mood and make the day fun. I think they are champions.
Another great observation from the day was the Jamba Juice in the Wilkinson Center. First of all, the glass panels surrounding the counter were lined with Harry Potter books in many different languages. Second, they covered the lights with blue paper and hung stars and candles from the ceiling. Third, they had this giant coloring page attached to the front of their counter. Fourth, when they took your order they gave you a list of Harry Potter characters and you picked one for the name of your order (ie they called my order as Luna Lovegood). Best experience there ever. The festiveness of it put me in such a good mood.
Point being, every day should be a holiday ;) Just kidding, that would ruin the specialness of them. But I do believe we could all do a better job of treating each day like the best day ever. It would make life so much more enjoyable.
-M
For example (there is always an example), yesterday was Halloween and boy was it fun. Quite a few people dressed up in amazing costumes (as seen here) and a majority of my professors brought us candy! They didn't have to, they chose to because they wanted to lighten the mood and make the day fun. I think they are champions.
Another great observation from the day was the Jamba Juice in the Wilkinson Center. First of all, the glass panels surrounding the counter were lined with Harry Potter books in many different languages. Second, they covered the lights with blue paper and hung stars and candles from the ceiling. Third, they had this giant coloring page attached to the front of their counter. Fourth, when they took your order they gave you a list of Harry Potter characters and you picked one for the name of your order (ie they called my order as Luna Lovegood). Best experience there ever. The festiveness of it put me in such a good mood.
Point being, every day should be a holiday ;) Just kidding, that would ruin the specialness of them. But I do believe we could all do a better job of treating each day like the best day ever. It would make life so much more enjoyable.
-M
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Patience Lens
I've slowly been learning the beauty of patience. It's hard because I'm such a "get it done now" type of person generally and that is not how things generally work out. I think the Lord keeps trying to remind me of my patience problem, giving me opportunities to learn.
For instance, when I was deciding on a college I wanted a decision made October of my senior year. My answer didn't come until March. Let me tell you, that was a rough time because I wanted to make plans (ie schedule, housing, etc) but couldn't because I couldn't decide where the best fit was for me. After a long wait and a great trial of patience I got my answer and things fell into place.
Last night my patience was tried as I attempted to sign up for classes. That headache certainly taught me to step back, breath, and stop acting like delays were the end of the world. (a surprisingly common problem)
I could bore you with more stories but I'll save it. You probably wouldn't have the patience to sit through many more of them anyways ;) Anyways, keep calm and soldier on. Be happy and don't freak out. You are loved. Results are worth the wait.
-M
For instance, when I was deciding on a college I wanted a decision made October of my senior year. My answer didn't come until March. Let me tell you, that was a rough time because I wanted to make plans (ie schedule, housing, etc) but couldn't because I couldn't decide where the best fit was for me. After a long wait and a great trial of patience I got my answer and things fell into place.
Last night my patience was tried as I attempted to sign up for classes. That headache certainly taught me to step back, breath, and stop acting like delays were the end of the world. (a surprisingly common problem)
I could bore you with more stories but I'll save it. You probably wouldn't have the patience to sit through many more of them anyways ;) Anyways, keep calm and soldier on. Be happy and don't freak out. You are loved. Results are worth the wait.
-M
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Different Lens
So I generally try to present my most neutral opinions on here because I want people to be willing to consider them without getting offended all over the place. But today I'd like to venture out into the religious sphere for a moment.
One of my favorite quotes is from Johnny Depp: "There are four questions of value in life... What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love."
I think that is an interesting insight into the nature of love and the nature of our spirits. I do believe each of us has a spirit and that our spirits will go to Heaven when we die. I believe we were created by a divine father who loved us enough to give us life and a way back to him. We exist because he loves us with a love so deep and incomprehensible.
In this modern society I think the concept of love is taken so lightly some times that it has lost its significance for some. Does this mean I think you shouldn't tell your friends and family that you love them all the time? No. Do. That is important. But I think to really show people we love them it has to be deeper. Like the quote said, love is what we live and die for. It is what we should hold sacred. We need to treat it as such.
Something I found interesting in a recent culture lesson in my Chinese class is that most people in China won't vocally tell each other they love each other very often. Their love is expressed through their actions and sacrifices. I think we could all do well by following their example of love through action. Because honestly, which is more valuable: telling something "I love you," or serving them in some way to make their life easier. Service is an expression of love and I think it will beat out vocalizing your love most of the time.
I think we could all use a little more love. Because if we just love everyone we don't have to worry about the burdens of jealousy, guilt, hatred, etc.
Love much,
M
One of my favorite quotes is from Johnny Depp: "There are four questions of value in life... What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for, and what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love."
I think that is an interesting insight into the nature of love and the nature of our spirits. I do believe each of us has a spirit and that our spirits will go to Heaven when we die. I believe we were created by a divine father who loved us enough to give us life and a way back to him. We exist because he loves us with a love so deep and incomprehensible.
In this modern society I think the concept of love is taken so lightly some times that it has lost its significance for some. Does this mean I think you shouldn't tell your friends and family that you love them all the time? No. Do. That is important. But I think to really show people we love them it has to be deeper. Like the quote said, love is what we live and die for. It is what we should hold sacred. We need to treat it as such.
Something I found interesting in a recent culture lesson in my Chinese class is that most people in China won't vocally tell each other they love each other very often. Their love is expressed through their actions and sacrifices. I think we could all do well by following their example of love through action. Because honestly, which is more valuable: telling something "I love you," or serving them in some way to make their life easier. Service is an expression of love and I think it will beat out vocalizing your love most of the time.
I think we could all use a little more love. Because if we just love everyone we don't have to worry about the burdens of jealousy, guilt, hatred, etc.
Love much,
M
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Culture Lens
When it comes to experiencing art I'd like to believe that I'm willing to try anything once. Tonight I got to check something off the list: opera. Real, Italian, Mozart-composed opera. And let me tell you, it was an extraordinary culture experience.
I kind of ended up going on accident but I'm totally glad I went. Originally I was going for a Humanities class project but the project got cancelled after I had already purchased a ticket. I could have given up the ticket but I was sort of interested in really experiencing an opera.
The name of the program I attended is Cosi fan Tutte. It was composed by Mozart, performed by BYU vocal performance students.
I didn't really know what to expect going in because I didn't want prejudices to cloud my experience. It began with this beautiful introduction by the orchestra and then shortly thereafter the action began.
The performance was truly beautiful in its own way. The comedic plot, extraordinarily talented actors, and exceptional orchestra pulled together to create an amazing experience for me. It had me laughing nearly the whole time. No, I probably wouldn't frequent the opera, but I would definitely go see another. There is something unique about the superfluous, gaudy nature of opera that is quite intriguing.
I guess the moral of the story is don't judge a book (or an art form) by its cover (or prejudices). Have an open mind as you learn to appreciate the talents of others and their expressions of emotion. There is so much beauty, so much to stand in awe of if we're willing to embrace culture
-M
PS If anyone is interested in seeing this show they still have some performances that you should definitely check out. To learn more about the plot of Cosi fan Tutte click here.
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| The program from Cosi fan Tutte. |
The name of the program I attended is Cosi fan Tutte. It was composed by Mozart, performed by BYU vocal performance students.
I didn't really know what to expect going in because I didn't want prejudices to cloud my experience. It began with this beautiful introduction by the orchestra and then shortly thereafter the action began.
The performance was truly beautiful in its own way. The comedic plot, extraordinarily talented actors, and exceptional orchestra pulled together to create an amazing experience for me. It had me laughing nearly the whole time. No, I probably wouldn't frequent the opera, but I would definitely go see another. There is something unique about the superfluous, gaudy nature of opera that is quite intriguing.
I guess the moral of the story is don't judge a book (or an art form) by its cover (or prejudices). Have an open mind as you learn to appreciate the talents of others and their expressions of emotion. There is so much beauty, so much to stand in awe of if we're willing to embrace culture
-M
PS If anyone is interested in seeing this show they still have some performances that you should definitely check out. To learn more about the plot of Cosi fan Tutte click here.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Alive Lens
Oh my lands I haven't written in 5 days! Must'a been up to no good. Actually not really. My life has been pretty uneventful.
Today I'd like to discuss the beauty of being alive. Think about it, when is the last time you stepped back and really thought about how glad you were that you were alive and breathing? Now that you're thinking about it and are fully aware of the fact that you're not dead, here are some great quotes:
Today I'd like to discuss the beauty of being alive. Think about it, when is the last time you stepped back and really thought about how glad you were that you were alive and breathing? Now that you're thinking about it and are fully aware of the fact that you're not dead, here are some great quotes:
When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive - to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.-Marcus Aurelius
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